I’ve met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I’m not expecting anything to come of it. I know that, in three months’ time, I’ll be far away and he’ll be just a memory, but I couldn’t stand living without love any longer; I had reached my limit. I’m writing a story for Ralf Hart - that’s his name. I’m not sure he’ll come back to the club where I work, but, for the first time in my life, that doesn’t matter. It’s enough just to love him, to be with him in my thoughts and to colour this lovely city with his steps, his words, his love. When I leave this country, it will have a face and a name and the memory of a fireplace. Everything else I experienced here, all the difficulties I had to overcome, will be as nothing compared to that memory. I would like to do for him what he did for me. I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and I realise that I didn’t go into that cafe by chance; really important meetings are planned by the souls long bef
Comments
a brand new beginning? or would there be a temptation to rediscover the past?
" And why insanity..."
" For you to see how fortunate you are."
" And why sanity..."
" For you to realize how unfortunate you are to be one of the fortunate ones."
syra, you don't to lose your mind or your memories to realize which you would choose. all you have to do is to put yourself in a situation where your memories and learned experiences are mostly irrelevant (so they might as well not have been there).
what situation might this be? different for different people. for me, it is sufficient to stand before a crowd and it makes me wonder whether i know myself and them. but i imagine being in an unfamiliar situation where you don't know what is expected of you, e.g. visit to a foreign land, being at a very formal dinner in the company of celebrities, etc. that should do the trick.
But my question is that since you remember nothing, there would be no inclination to dig into the past because you remember nothing and there are no feelings attached, no? Family and friends would seem to be as alien as strangers. It's all blank.
If I simulate the situation it seems scary since at the moment I know me and bear memories and feelings attached to people, likings, disliking etc. If all that is null, wouldn't it kill the urge to dig into the past too?
They do say its human nature to know.
Visit to a foreign land - gradually one tends to feel comfortable and settles in. The ease of it varies from person to person. btw with no memories, home land would be as foreign as any foreign land..it might make the tuning in process quicker.hmm
being at a very formal dinner in the company of celebrities -- yeheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :). I would be cool however in my superstar presence, the celebrities might feel shy :p
Jokes apart, if I remember nothing, the celebrities would appear to me like a stranger too but yes a formal lunch with unknown ppl might be a bit odd.